How does Karma really work?

We trying to finish up the last things for our trip to Portland.  Well, more Kelly than me.  My job is to eat and manage my pain.  Thus far I'm not quite up to par on either.

The magic of friendship continues.  Gifts left on the porch (thank you Jen), gifts brought to Sunday School (thank you, Lesley),  countless offers of help, well wishes, and prayers.  I think I have at least some sect from just about every major religion praying for me and I appreciate it deeply.  I have people giving guidance, advice, and assistance at every turn.  It is amazing.  Upon reading I was on a quest for crab, my friend Beth drove up from Sutherlin to bring me some from her freezer.  This is despite the fact that she has plenty of drama going on in her own life right now.

I received an email from another woman who goes to our synagogue.  She has a son the same age as my younger daughter.  She has had this disease multiple times and has endured many treatments.  She is currently at the "after" stage of what I'm at the "before" stage.  Her words were so encouraging to me!  Life is good despite the changes to your body.  I will look different.  I will sound different.  I will still be me.  I guess no one really doubted that, except maybe me.

I have so many people that love me so much that they drop everything, fly on planes to see me, rearrange their lives to help me and my family, bring me gifts, arrange prayer groups, prepare meals, harass me about eating... the list goes on and on. Obviously there is something about me that is worthy of all that out pouring of love.  And yet, cancer is visiting me again.  I know, bad things happen to good people.  What happens when bad things happen to bad people?  How do they get through it?

Trying to up the caloric intake while cutting the sugar.  Unfortunately it seems the yeast will be hanging out with me up until the minute they remove my tongue.  Uncomfortable and gross and all the Ensure/boost/meal replacement shakes are really sugar heavy, which just makes my mouth burn.  Yay for Heather for a recipe that is calorie dense without the sugar.  Now to get it made and consumed.

Lots and lots (and LOTS) of you have asked to help.  I know we will need it in the future.  I'm pretty sure I'm going to need a baby sitter in the days after I come home, to make sure I take my meds and don't trip on the way to the bathroom.  I won't have the energy to walk to dog or chase Karissa for awhile.  I likely won't be cooking, shopping or laundering for awhile.  Kelly is capable of doing all these things, but he is also doing everything else.  I know we will be leaning on you guys for help again in the healing phase.  Don't feel left out!

Keep up the love, the prayers, the positive energy, the good thoughts, and the care.  I deeply, deeply appreciate it and love you all!